Givin It Up

hey guys, im gonna make this short so when u see the length you'll wanna read it instead of avoid it. Satan is smart. hes got milleniums of experience about how humans work. he knows that when he tells us that its hard to give everything up to God, that we will believe him. ill tell u some serious truth, its not hard. it is easy. if u ignore satan and just try to give it all up, ull look back and think "frig that was easy". i dont challenge u to give it up, i challenge u to atempt, cause once ur ready to give it up, its just 1 easy tiptoe to God. He waits with open arms guys.

Last Lap

Hey guys, were all on the last 2 weeks of school, sorta :) after exams its over, but meanwhile i got serious studying to do. well im gonna try my best to finish strong. right now i feel like throwing away my bio studying cause i dont think i can pass, but honestly, what would Jesus do? although i got like a 40 right now, i know if i pray my hardest, and do everything i can in my power to get that bio mark up, God can do what He wants through that. whether its His will for me to pass bio or not, im gonna do everything in my power to leave both options open. God i'll forever live for You and ill do my hardest to not fail You.

The Marathon

the famine was amazing. Matt Wan, what a man of God. he truly spoke the message God wanted us to hear. i know that we all gota mission ahead of us. we see and hear things that happen around us and we stop what we're doing and think, "oh my gosh, thats awful, thats horible, i cant believe thast happening." yet we continue what we are doing right after and do nothing about it. there was a movie called Hotel Rwanda that we watched. its about the african war. it was prity much gencide. one man said something like this. "surely if we send them the video tape of what's happening, they will do somthing about it." and the other man replied "this will only stop them from eating dinner and continue again" isnt that true? we see whats happening around us, and do nothing about it. we stop and think about it, we think wow thats horible, and continue as if nothing was happening at all.

you know, Christianity is a race. not like the 50, 100, 200, or 400 metre dash. its a marathon. in the 50 - 400, its about winning, its about getting first place. that or nothing. theres a story that goes with this. there was an indian guy who spoke to me the other day in his sermon. he had a friend who was running a marathon. his friend came and asked him "do you want to run the marathon with me?" he replied "no, but i will go there to support you that day" so then the day of the marathon came. after the race started, time passed. eventually he saw people coming in, finishing up the race. he didn't see his friend. after a lot more time passed, he saw some old 70 yearolds come in and he started to laugh. lots and lots more time passed and he realized his friend still didnt pass the finish line. he laughed even more. eventaully he saw his friend come in and he just laughed and said "oh my goodness, you were creamed by everyone, these 70 yearolds passed you and everything, haha" and his friend replied "sam, it's not about who gets first," here i asumed he was going to say, it's about finishing the race, and because i asumed, the message would have been week if he said that line. but no, instead he said this, "- it's about finishing what you started" and i say amen to that. its about comitment. it dosnt matter who tackles us down durring the race. it matters that we get back up again.

im almost 100% sure that each and everyone of you who are reading this has made a commitment to God before. our christian life is about finishing and doing Gods will, to finish what you started. it dosnt matter how many times we stumble and fall. guys, get back up, finish what you started. it dosnt mater who gets there first, we end up spending eternity either with the winners or losers. chose your side.

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.
-Hebrews 12:1

I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.
-Timothy 4:7

Hunger Bites, Bite Back

this is the night before 30 hour famine. im really excited, i finally get to see matt again after all these months!! incase a lot of you didnt know, Matt was the messenger of the day when i was saved. through him, God really taught me what it is to be a Christian. after that day, me and matt were tight. the coolest part is this, the time i was saved was 3 years ago at the 30 hour famine!!! which is tomorrow for a lot of us! im sooo excited. when people hungry and starving for the holy spirit, God will truly shine his light. im sorry R2L but i believe a lot of your planning will go down the drain. Matt tends to do that haha. maybe i shoulda told u that last week, or before that haha. i had a great feeling about retreat and retreat was amazing. i have a good feeling about the 30 hour famine. lets do the possible and let God handle the impossible.

Jesus, You Are The Saviour Of My Soul!

What The World Will Never Take

With all I'm holding inside
With all hopes and desires
And all the dreams that I've dreamt
With all I'm hoping to be
And all that the world will bring
And all that fails to compare

You say You want all for me
I wouldnt have it any other way

I've got a Saviour and He's living in me
WHOA
I wana know
I wana know You today

You are the best thing that has happened to me
And the world will never take
The world will never take You away
No-one could ever take You away

Collection

this is just a buncha lines from songs that popped into my head just cause they spoke a lot to me...

there is nothing like Your love
the enemy's been defeated
tell the world that Jesus lives
tell the world that He died for them
tell the world that He lives again
every move i make i make in You
salvation is here and He lives in me
You are amazing God
You're the only one that i could live for
everything is different
shout unto God with a voice of triumph

every waking moment, i try to make my life a prayer.

Lord You Are Good!

Lord You are good
And Your mercy endureth forever
Lord You are good
And Your mercy endureth forever

People from every nation and tongue
From generation to generation

We worship You, Hallelujah, Hallelujah,
We worship You for who You are...
You are good!

You are good, All the time
All the time, You are good

God Rules

God, i love You. i love how you change the school. i love how you're changing the world. i love being a tool for You. Lord let me glorify You and only You. let us fufill your mission. we are PCA, and we will bring the sound of faith to the world.

Hear our praises
Hear Your people sing
Hear our hearts cry
Your love is everything


Let our hearts break
As we praise Your name
LET THE EARTH SHAKE
THIS IS THE SOUND OF FAITH


And all will hear this shout
As the nations turn to You
AND THIS WILL BE OUR ANTHEM

CAUSE WE'RE ALL ABOUT YOU
and the world You promised
and all we have will give You praise
CAUSE WE'RE ALL ABOUT YOU
AND THE WORLD CAN'T STOP US
LIVING YOUR WAY, ALWAYS

And the walls will fall down
and relgion will break
And the nations will hear this shout
CAN YOU HEAR THE SOUND OF FAITH?

All the walls are falling down
As all the nations praise
And all the world will hear this shout
Can You Hear The Sound Of Faith?

Sticks

Oh man! i broke another stick. i bought it just monday, i used it for the first time this morning for practice and at chappel they broke. the thing im bummed out about is that they cost 14 bucks and i dont wanna spend about 30 bucks in a span of a week for drum sticks. these were gonna be my favorite sticks too. i guess it was my bad tho. the church complained and mr vermont told me that the church was asking me to play softer. so that was when i realized i broke my stick. its all good, the worship produced today was priceless. u know i wonder if they sell sticks in a big bundle, that would rock. well if anyone sees somthing like that, PLEASE TELL ME :D and they have to be VIC FIRTH drumsticks, they're my favorite. i think im just gonna go back to the evolution model, it took me about 8 months to break those (both at the retreat). when i looked at the drumsticks today i was really bummed out cause i noticed i think there was a defect in the wood. im gonna see if i can get them exchanged today. see ya guys later.....

HALLELUJAH

OH GOD, IVE SURRENDERED ALL AND DID YOUR WILL. YOU ARE SO AMAZING. YOU'VE REVEALED YOURSELF TO ME AND ALL PAIN IS GONE. LORD I HAVE A FIRE FOR YOU THAT WILL BURN SATAN BACK TO HELL. LORD U ARE SO AWESOME!!!! I DONT KNOW HOW BUT MY GOD YOU DO IT SO OFTEN!!! OH GOD BE WITH ME, OH GOD YOU ARE SO AMAZING, GOD I LIFT MY VOICE TO YOU!!!!!!!!

THE ENEMY'S BEEN DEFEATED
DEATH COULDNT HOLD YOU DOWN
WE'RE GONNA LIFT OUR VOICE IN VICTORY
WE'RE GONNA MAKE OUR PRAISES LOUD

SHOUT UNTO GOD WITH A VOICE OF TRIUMPH
SHOUT UNTO GOD WITH A VOICE OF PRAISE
SHOUT UNTO GOD WITH A VOICE OF TRIUMPH
WE LIFT YOUR NAME UP, WE LIFT YOUR NAME UP

THE ENEMY'S BEEN DEFEATED
DEATH COULDNT HOLD YOU DOWN
WE'RE GONNA LIFT OUR VOICE IN VICTORY
WE'RE GONNA MAKE OUR PRAISES LOUD

SHOUT UNTO GOD WITH A VOICE OF TRIUMPH
SHOUT UNTO GOD WITH A VOICE OF PRAISE
SHOUT UNTO GOD WITH A VOICE OF TRIUMPH
WE LIFT YOUR NAME UP, WE LIFT YOUR NAME UP

THE ENEMY'S BEEN DEFEATED
DEATH COULDNT HOLD YOU DOWN
WE'RE GONNA LIFT OUR VOICE IN VICTORY
WE'RE GONNA MAKE OUR PRAISES LOUD

SHOUT UNTO GOD WITH A VOICE OF TRIUMPH
SHOUT UNTO GOD WITH A VOICE OF PRAISE
SHOUT UNTO GOD WITH A VOICE OF TRIUMPH
WE LIFT YOUR NAME UP, WE LIFT YOUR NAME UP

I Have One Friend

Thank You Lord! You are all i need. You're my one and only friend who i can trust forever and ever. there were many who tried to take your place but i swear Lord, You will never leave my heart.

The Red is what i feel


Hold me in Your arms
Never let me go
I want to spend eternity with You

And now that You're near
Everything is different
Everything's so different Lord
I know i'm not the same
My life You've changed
I want to be with You
I want to be with You

I stand before You Lord
And give You all my praise
Your love is all i need
Jesus You're all i need

My life belongs to You
You gave Your life for me
Your grace is all i need
Jesus You're all i need

Dont Underestimate Satan

Guys, Gods bigger than satan, however, both of them are still bigger than us. dont u guys see? its not YOU AND ME who are strong enough to do anything. it has never been us who is strong enough. whenever we are strong enough, it is God who is strong enough and its those times when we depended on him and give him our all. the more we give to him, the more "seemingly" strong we got. but i swear to you all, none of you are strong. none of you can withstand Satans atack. u guys gota have God, and only God can ward off Satan. dont underestimate Satan. He will get u every time. i confess, he gets me more than daily. guys, its not You who is ever strong enough ever. Satan will kill you so bad if u ever think that. and if u think ur strong enough, satan will kill u worse. guys its not You who will defeat the enemy, but its God. Why do you think i give glory to God when i play drums and u guys complement me??? i didnt do anything special, God is the one who was strong enough to lead a worship so powerful. my main point isnt just, dont underestimate Satan. my main point is, dont underestimate God. cause ill tell you one thing forsure, you cant possibly overestimate Him.

Jesus, What A Friend

today i lost a really close friend of mine. thanks to gosip, almost everyone knows who. although i totally miss her as a friend, i know God wanted me to just kill what we had. it wasnt much, but aparently it was too much in Gods eyes. i trust God and i will follow him forever. i just pray that i would stop liking this person....

wow... my first crush ^^; i feel so foolish. especially after all that God took away. but he can take everything away from me, and i will still follow because if it is his will, it is mine. i made promises to God all my life, and even tho i broken them many times, i still swear to keep doing my hardest not to stop. God, hear my praises. i love you so much, i would even destroy all my relationships with all my friends and family for You. i thank You for letting me have this heart that desires You first always. You are amazing God

Cry Number Four

if God is with us, who can be against us?

Blog 3 In One Day

will today never end? ive never experienced such torture. why why why.... im so weak! Jesus, King of Majesty, i love you. you've told me what to do, i will do it. my God, you are so awesome... You are glorious. You are the name above all names. your fame, resounds throughout heaven and earth. Jesus, You are the saviour of my soul. i lift up my hands. i surrender all. who am i to deserve such grace. i will go to the ends of the earth for You, just say it. this torture, ill sacrifice anything for You. this torture is nothing compared to the torture you suffered. i've received a glimpes of your pain, when the very people who nailed you to the cross were the ones who loved you so much. God, how do you do it? how do you handle the pain? Food wont satisfy my hunger. Lord i give everything up to You. Why Lord? Why her? of all people, why her? God u confuse me, but i know u know everything. u are so amazing Lord. Lord you have given me enough proof to shake the whole earth. i asked you to stop the rain and it stopped. i asked you to start it up again, it started up, i then asked again for it to stop. and even after all that i doubted. i asked you to let the sun shine. and the clouds cleared. why do You love me??!??!?? and Lord even after all that, you went further and further, You let me worship You. You let ME, a wretch, worship YOU. i nailed You to the cross, again and again, yet u still Love me. Indescribable, u are amazing Lord. how do you love the whole earth. yet the whole earth rejects You. I guess its people like elijah that keep You goin, waitin for another one. but ur God, i dont know. Lord, this is my cry. Lord i dont know how. Lord i praise you. Hallelujah, that You let me praise You. God, let Your will be done, cause Your will, is mine.

Dang

MAN ive never felt so down. only 3 of u out there know what im talkin about! AHHH GOD the direction ur pointing me to... all i see is death and destruction, and i CANT EVEN SEE THE SLIGHTEST POSITIVE ABOUT IT. Why do u want me to do this??? WHY do you want me to go here? God im walkin this way, with faith, i know u got it undercontrol. but my goodness, it feels so pointless. please Lord... i have no idea why ur askin me to do this. what the heck!

Days Of Elijah

for the first time in a long time, im very depressed. wow. i wanna say everything on this blog, but its way too personal. i dont want to share it with anyone. but i say all this cause im dying to share. i dont know if its God or Satan whos sending me these messages. i seriously need some prayer. dont pray that i will recover, cause i will recover, and theres no point in praying about somthing that will happen no matter what. i ask you guys to pray that no matter what happens, that i will follow Gods will, and nothing but His will.

something i realized just recently is that, dying for God is so easy, but living for him...